The battle before me

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Sometimes I feel as though I’m still living in 2020. Do you ever get that feeling?

I’ve thought about this a lot lately, but what I haven’t thought about as much is how to get out of this mentality. 

A close friend recently forwarded me a podcast from The Grove that streams live from Passion City Church in Atlanta, Georgia. The November 15, 2021, podcast (Remember Lot’s Wife) featured Christine Caine, a well-known Bible teacher, author, and activist from Australia. Caine describes a place many of us find ourselves still in—reminiscing for our lives of “normalcy” in 2019. It’s like we’ve gotten spiritually and emotionally “stuck” in the pre-pandemic world and before the unleashing of the global reset.

Listening to this podcast inspired me to think through and petition God in greater detail about how “stuck” I’ve really been. I’ve realized that the battle around me is not about what I’ve missed or how our basic freedoms were stripped away these last couple of precious years. 

The real battle before me is not about the tragedy of isolation, or loss, or censorship on a global scale, or cancel culture, or missed celebrations and gatherings.

The battle before me is for my soul. 

This plain truth lies ensconced before me. It’s unveiled my unbelief, my iniquities, and despondency of living in such a world of overwhelm. 

But here’s another truth. I know our God has a plan and a purpose for me, always, in all times. And this has prompted a tighter stronghold on he who holds our times in his hands. 

More than ever, I need to trust him and dig deeper into that which saves, heals, and springs up confident expectation. Like a plant weathered by the rain turns to the vibrant sun. He is always working. He is always doing a new thing.

Thank you, God, for your Word today.

Because you are with me, I will not look back. I will refuse to get stuck in 2020 and 2021. I can do this in your name, in your strength, and in your divine providence.

Search me, God, and know my heart;

test me and know my anxious thoughts.

See if there is any iniquity in me,

and lead me in the way everlasting.

Psalm 139:23-34

God is within her, she will not fall;

God will help her at break of day.

Psalm 46:5

But blessed is the one who trusts in the LORD,

whose confidence is in him.

They will be like a tree planted by the water

that sends out its roots by the stream.

It does not fear when heat comes;

its leaves are always green.

It has no worries in a year of drought

and never fails to bear fruit.

Jeremiah 17:7-9