Most people put on their cross necklace in the morning while getting ready for the day. That was me.
But most recently, in the last year or so, I’m finding myself putting on my cross necklace before going to sleep.
In fact, if I’m already in bed and realize that I don’t have it on, I get up and go put it on. I’ve even been woken in the middle of the night with the intent to place it upon me.
Why is this happening to me? I can tell you for certain that I’ve never been prompted like this before…
I’ve concluded that it’s because I feel like I need extra protection right now — day and night, awake or sleeping.
You see, my path in the wood has altered dramatically in the last year. There’s been unbelievable change in my home life, work life and spiritual life. I’m in a season of life where everything it seems is transforming into something else. A revised baseline; an unfamiliar norm. This new reality is refreshing, but scary at the same time. There are competing forces fighting for my hope, my attention. And, that’s why I feel like I need extra protection.
Sometimes when I feel this struggle in my heart while lying there in the dark, I grasp my cross pendant, rearranging it to the front if it’s fallen off-balance and untangling its chain. I know it’s not the physical substance of the necklace that revitalizes me. It’s Christ through the Holy Spirit calling out to me.
Am I going crazy? In earthly terms, probably yes. But in terms of divine mapping, I believe this process is key for me in this precious moment of time.